Thursday....

.. Today I found myself really thinking about how this is really my "FOREVER"… living each day with the children without our Dad, husband, friend. Each day passes and a new day starts....just like the mail... it comes each day and Carson and I are together for the first part of the morning until he gets on the bus for noon…. The highlight of his day is waiting at the curb for the mail truck to pull around to greet him.. A pile of mail, bound by an elastic that he likes to take off and shoot at the dog….he often asks," is there anything for me"?.. I crack a smile knowing he will be satisfied with those store flyers... always something in there he can haunt me about...or those fake credit cards they send you in the mail, he likes to put those in his wallet.. But what comes each week and came today.. and a reminder of how much Dave is missed… is his Thursday Sports Illustrated Magazine delivery. That has been coming to our house for 12 years…and it hit me hard today because I found myself piling them up with last weeks and the week before and so on… I used to tease Dave about him not really reading those.. how he just looked at the pictures… (is it really possible to read front to back in a half hour?) …and he then would be looking forward to next weeks issue. Some I could pitch out.. Some I had to save.. Then there were those that could be worth something someday?…(he said!) ...LOL...
Well… on a up beat note.. We got to see Aunite Maria this morning and she gave Carson this really cool tee shirt… (thanks Aunitie) ..I took his picture next to the roses that bloomed the other day, these are the roses that Dave chopped down last fall and he thought for sure those bushes were never going to live?.. But they did !!!...they came back this year so full and beautiful…so here is a picture for you Hun… they are doing well!… xoxo LOVE YOU!
~Michele